So... I'm selfish.

Not totally off of the spiritual base here; lately I am feeling impatient for my future. I think this may be directly related to that my life is speeding up and passing me by rapidly (or maybe even the cause). One thing that Ben has always said is that we must try to enjoy where we are right now. But it just seems like my definition of "seeking" God's plan for my [our] life [lives] means always looking ahead... very frustrating for me. I am even capable of admitting that I know I can be in God's will with my every day life (aka where I am NOW). For some reason, though, I am looking for it (God's will) to be in something exciting...waiting for me...NEW. Its that- "NEW"- that I feel like I am always reaching for. Why can't I "Be still and know that He is God"? In my bible study that I am doing right now, which I have referenced several times, Beth Moore addresses that unsatisfaction and similar feelings are a result of a broken relationship with the Lord. I am NOT saying that my relationship with the Lord is perfect but I have confessed to Him that I am willing to go and do whatever it is that He wants me to do. And I definitely wouldn't say that my relationship with the Lord is insufficient. So... obviously I am looking for the Lord in the wrong places (eh-hem) my near future. I pushing Him into my ideas of what I want. If you would, please pray that I no longer try to put Him where I want to be, but that He can put me where I never thought I could be. OK, I think that in typing all of my thoughts I have realized where I've messed up. Thanks, y'all and yay God!